It just wouldn't die!

So, today I was talking to my friend about how I had deleted my Facebook account and he tells me that it still showed up on his account as active. ??? I guess they don't want you to go so they give you several "deactivations" to think about it. Well I win this time Facebook! Hahaha! 

I finally am getting sound sleep again (at least in the past two days). The past couple of weeks I have been sleeping 3, maybe 4, hours a night and it just was not enough. I discovered that this was because essentially I was doing too much and chasing my tail so much that it was starting to overrule everything. No more of that. I can only do what I can do, and I have to learn to be happy with that. 

Went for a walk tonight, and it was nice. I have been talking to more people about the fact I go walking at night and they have successfully rendered me paranoid about it. The whole time I was out tonight I kept looking over my shoulder and all around like a crazy person. But it is better to be safe than sorry! Needless to say, tonight we were safe and not sorry! :o) Little one fell asleep with her warm bottle of milk (Yes, I said bottle. Yes, I know she is 18 months old and shouldn't have one, but that is for a whole other post). When we got home I decided to take some Mommy time and write in my journal, which eventually lead to the post you are  now reading. 

This is a walk photo from a couple of weeks ago when it was much warmer! She is in love with her stroller! Tonight when I put her in she put her arms behind her head and got all comfy! Cutest thing ever!! 

Tomorrow I am going on a little girl stocking mission. I have my daughter and my roommates daughter who need stockings and I have it in my head that they will have the perfect Princess ones! :o) I am so excited to see Kyleigh's face on Christmas, since this is the first one she will actually understand more of what is happening! 

Well I think it is time to get some rest for my mission tomorrow! Have a good day all! :o)

What?! No Facebook?? Is hell frozen??

So, after thinking about this for about a week, I have decided that I will be deactivating my Facebook account for a while (goal: 2011!). I think I am on the thing way too much (and I am sure my family would agree), so it is time to refocus on what is important in my life. It is time to focus 100% on my daughter and myself. I am on a very intense journey of getting to know myself.. This is very necessary.

I want to understand why I do the things I do, and how to break patterns in my life that I am unhappy with.  I want to re-focus on the positive in my life and learn to appreciate what I have. I will always strive for more, but I don't want to let myself feel like I have to "keep up with the Jones." This is another reason for deleting the Facebook. Is it really necessary to have all of these friends on there that I don't speak to in "real life"? I don't think so.

Well on to the fun stuff. :o)

I am now a brunette for the first time in my life! I am loving it!

Kyleigh has started doing this little thing where I ask her "Are you the cutest little girl ever?" and she replies "Ever!" I love it! She cracks me up with the things she says, and at 19 months she is starting to say a lot! She points to everything and either tells me what it is or asks me what it is. She is so smart! She is my "big helper" no matter what chore I am doing she will come up and say "I hep yhuu" If I am sweeping she points to the little pile and says "EEEWWW duhhrrteee"

I think that is enough for now! I imagine I will be on here much more now that I won't have a Facebook!