Attention grabbing title!

Lately when I come to write a blog I find myself really not knowing what to write or if I even want to. I tried the whole Facebook thing again a couple weeks ago and I just don't think I like it anymore. It got on my nerves when I reactivated it, so I just deactivated it all over again. I think that I just want to start fresh. I want to be happy, and I am starting to be able to do that. I want to be totally ok with being single and I want to 100% rely on myself. That is going to take time, I know, but I am really working hard at it. I find myself getting jealous and a little aggravated when I know that certain people are lying to me. Then I have to catch myself, why does it matter? And is it really my business anyways? No. These people have a right to move on and be happy, just as much as I do. I am really making an attempt to let go and allow that process to begin, and I hope that they do too.

I didn't have the little one last night so I took a night for me and relaxed and watched a couple movies before bed. I still haven't been feeling very well, so I was trying to take it easy. I watched Despicable Me, and it is such a cute movie! I really like it. Then I watched I Love You, Man and was reminded how funny it is. I was alone in my room with my bag of popcorn (and 3 bottles of water LOL) and the movies, cracking up. It was a good night!

I still haven't passed my stone. I was hoping and thinking that it would have passed by now, since I was told that it was so close to my bladder, but I was wrong. Until then I am just trying to drink insane amounts of water and keeping my fingers crossed it passes soon.

I came across a quote today that I really liked:

"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm"
-Winston Churchill  

We all have to move on no matter if we feel we triumphed or failed, so why not go on with just as much enthusiasm to begin our next journey? If we allow our failures to bring us down how can we ever expect to do more than fail? While dwelling on the past we are missing the present as it zooms past us. We have to just hop on the ride and hope that our seat belts are secure enough to keep us safe. If we fall off we have to wipe up and get back on. Such is life.

Well I am going to get off of here and try to find something productive to do before my couseling appointment this afternoon. I hope everyone is having a good week.

Have you been drinking enough water?

I sure wasn't. I found that out the hard way too. I spent last night in the ER until 2am because I had been having Kidney pain that got to be too much yesterday. After 6 hours of tests, pain medicine (which made me so sick), and finally a CT scan I found out I have a Kidney Stone. They said that it is close to my bladder, so hopefully I will not be in pain for very much longer. 

Aside from child birth, this was the first time I have ever gone to the hospital for myself. I was a little hesitant to go, but after a few hours of my mom nagging at me about it I agreed and we went (I'm sure the intense pain was helpful too). The waiting room was so full that people were standing like vultures waiting to snag up your chair the minute your butt lifted from the cushion. It was crazy, but also good for people watching -one of my favorite past times. Anyways, things are gonna be fine, just have to keep up on my water intake! Hope you all have a great week!