Tut

My counselor was telling me about this website today called Tut and so I thought I'd check it out. From what I see I like it. It seems like an uplifting and positive spin off of Facebook. The above image is your default picture if you don't upload one. I love it. All I could say when I read it was Wow! I think that it is so true!

Stay Focused!

A few months ago my counselor started having me pull a card from this deck at the end of each session. I was both skeptical and intrigued at the same time. Well as it turned out I felt that each session I pulled a card it really pertained to what was going on. I liked this so much that I found myself wondering "is there an app for that!?" And as it turns out, there was! I bought this app a couple months ago, and now both myself and my family enjoy "pulling cards".

Today I was at my desk doing my online homework and decided I needed to pull a card (I'm so good at keeping on task aren't I? lol). The card I pulled was titled 'Stay Focused'. Here is the meaning:

"You drew this card as a reminder to stay focused upon your intentions, desires, and priorities. Don't allow yourself to be distracted by short-term situations, dramas, or other people's demands. Keep a positive outlook about your dreams, and imagine that they've already manifested into reality. Devote regular amounts of time toward your projects and priorities. Say no to distractions and you will see results."

It made me chuckle to myself that here I was distracting myself with these cards, and the cards are telling me to focus. Beyond the immediate and obvious connection to my homework, I really think this applies to me on a daily basis. I tend to write myself and my desires off on a daily basis to work on something someone else needs or wants from me. Even something like cleaning the house instead of doing homework. I always tell myself I will find time, instead of devoting time to this very important factor of my life. I also tend to be negative about things I think.

I have made a considerable effort to train my brain back into positivity. I think it is really working. I am not allowing the negative clouds to fog up the space in my brain, instead I am blowing them away and replacing them with positive ones. Even doing the daily list of what I am thankful is a tremendous help. I have even been getting comments from my family and friends about how happy I now seem. It's not even that I just seem happier, I actually feel happier. I think it is a process to train yourself to think a different way, but I am enjoying the challenge.

Class, class, class, class

I would like to make a mental note that next time around in school I am going to fight my hardest to stay in every class so that I don't have to re-take them. It is a little boring to be in a class hearing information for the second time. I have to wait for everyone else to catch up to where I am so that I can move forward. But, I will say that I am happy to not have such a LARGE work load because for now I can call upon the work I already have done (sweet!).

Today I am thankful for:

1. Starting to be able to recognize what is and what is not something to stress over. I have been able to identify what is not "mine" and let it roll off my shoulders and keep moving forward.
2. Laughter.
3. Gramma's yummy food and good company.

Today I am thankful for:

1. Bubbles on breezy days.
2. Three hour naps that end in sneeky jelly bean antics.
3. Being able to enjoy the last day of Kyleigh's 1 year-old-ness.
4. The past two years of watching my baby grow and learn.

As I just typed out that last piece on the list it hit me so hard that it has only beem two years since she was born. I have felt like wow time flies, but also so much has changed so drastically, its amazing its ONLY been two years!! I am very happy and excited to see what the future holds.

Happy Easter!

Today is Easter! I hope everyone is having a good day and spending lots of time with family and friends. :o)

Today I am grateful for:

1. The fact that my daughter and her father are so close. When I went to drop her off today he had eggs "hidden" (as much as is possible for a 2 year old) and had a basket waiting for her and had decorated. I almost started crying. I am so happy that the relationship with them has finally gotten to where I was scared it never would.

2. Candice. She has such a big heart and is always willing to help her family when ever she can. We played Easter Bunny together last night after she took me to my firtst bonfire, and it was a much needed fun and relaxing night. She does these really small but very sweet things that make you smile. She is amazing.

3. Country music. This morning was spent dancing to all kinds of country songs with the kiddos and it was a great time! :o)

Thats my list for now, thanks for reading! Have a safe and happy holiday!