Let the good times roll! Lol.

I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with everything in my life. I am going crazy at my house, and I dont know that I will be able to save enough money for a deposit for my own place. I am wasting so much of my own money supporting and providing for people that should be providing for themselves. Then I have a guilty concious if I dont support them. I had spoken to a family member awhile back about possibly satying with them for a few months until I saved up enough money for a deposit, and now they informed me that they are fighting to keep their home from foreclosure. I just want a stable place fory daughter and it makes me sick that I feel like I cant. I was always going to do better for my kids than my mom did for me and now even a place to live is a struggle.

I really hope accepting this new position is going to be as beneficial as Im hoping and assuming it will be.

Life is a struggle right now, but I know I can do it. Just gotta keep fighting I suppose. Hope everyone has a good week!

Moving into an apartment of my own is something I want so bad right now that it has begun to be all I can think about. I am having a hard time being nice about everything with my mom and her boyfriend. Neither of them have jobs and they both continuously complain about how much food I "dont" buy or what kind etc etc etc. I do what I can with what I have and it is never good enough. I dont feel it is my responsibilty to support either of these grown adults but I am trying to help.

I have to keep Kyleigh as my main priority and that is a concept neither of them seem to understand. He has no children and she never put hers before herself or any man she was ever with. So having a child's welfare put before tgeir own is apparently beyond comprehension for them. My goal is to have enough saved for a deposit on a place by the time our lease is up. If I cant get that accomplished I might move to my grandma's until I get my tax return then use that money to move. I cant wait to get my VERY OWN place :)! I am so dang excited for that.

Just another day :)

Not all that much is going on today. The weather was super crazy and made me a little worried about business at my job-since we are a water park and all.. But it is out of my control and I realize that.

Speaking of work, I have revently been offered a new position in the company. I accepted it and I am very nervous about it. I have been there 7 years the end of this month and I have not really worked this department. I feel like I have a lot to learn, but I know I can do it and I just have to keep that in mind.

Recently when I say to Kyleigh "you better check yourself" she says "before you wreck yourself moooomm" haha so funny. Her little brain is just growing leaps and bounds and it is really cool to witness. She is getting a crazy funny personality and her ability to rationalize amazes me! I will try to muster some energy to post pics within the next few days :)