Attention grabbing title!

Lately when I come to write a blog I find myself really not knowing what to write or if I even want to. I tried the whole Facebook thing again a couple weeks ago and I just don't think I like it anymore. It got on my nerves when I reactivated it, so I just deactivated it all over again. I think that I just want to start fresh. I want to be happy, and I am starting to be able to do that. I want to be totally ok with being single and I want to 100% rely on myself. That is going to take time, I know, but I am really working hard at it. I find myself getting jealous and a little aggravated when I know that certain people are lying to me. Then I have to catch myself, why does it matter? And is it really my business anyways? No. These people have a right to move on and be happy, just as much as I do. I am really making an attempt to let go and allow that process to begin, and I hope that they do too.

I didn't have the little one last night so I took a night for me and relaxed and watched a couple movies before bed. I still haven't been feeling very well, so I was trying to take it easy. I watched Despicable Me, and it is such a cute movie! I really like it. Then I watched I Love You, Man and was reminded how funny it is. I was alone in my room with my bag of popcorn (and 3 bottles of water LOL) and the movies, cracking up. It was a good night!

I still haven't passed my stone. I was hoping and thinking that it would have passed by now, since I was told that it was so close to my bladder, but I was wrong. Until then I am just trying to drink insane amounts of water and keeping my fingers crossed it passes soon.

I came across a quote today that I really liked:

"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm"
-Winston Churchill  

We all have to move on no matter if we feel we triumphed or failed, so why not go on with just as much enthusiasm to begin our next journey? If we allow our failures to bring us down how can we ever expect to do more than fail? While dwelling on the past we are missing the present as it zooms past us. We have to just hop on the ride and hope that our seat belts are secure enough to keep us safe. If we fall off we have to wipe up and get back on. Such is life.

Well I am going to get off of here and try to find something productive to do before my couseling appointment this afternoon. I hope everyone is having a good week.

Have you been drinking enough water?

I sure wasn't. I found that out the hard way too. I spent last night in the ER until 2am because I had been having Kidney pain that got to be too much yesterday. After 6 hours of tests, pain medicine (which made me so sick), and finally a CT scan I found out I have a Kidney Stone. They said that it is close to my bladder, so hopefully I will not be in pain for very much longer. 

Aside from child birth, this was the first time I have ever gone to the hospital for myself. I was a little hesitant to go, but after a few hours of my mom nagging at me about it I agreed and we went (I'm sure the intense pain was helpful too). The waiting room was so full that people were standing like vultures waiting to snag up your chair the minute your butt lifted from the cushion. It was crazy, but also good for people watching -one of my favorite past times. Anyways, things are gonna be fine, just have to keep up on my water intake! Hope you all have a great week!

My little rant

I first am going to appologize in advance. What you are about to read is totally a rant, if you don't want to hear it don't read it!

I do not understand how people think in regards to their children. Why is it so damn hard for people to put their children first and foremost?? Why would a single parent -mother or father, want to be in a relationship, or even date someone who refuses to be around their child?? If someone I was considering a serious relationship with told me they didn't want my child around they would get a big fuck you and that would be the end of it. How could someone be so selfish to act any other way? How could you make your poor child sit alone in a room all day for your own selfish motives? The person I am speaking about is (thankfully) not someone intimately involved in my own life or that of my daughter but they have a little princess a year older than my daughter. This little girl is such a sweet heart and she literally will get into trouble for leaving her room if her parents "significant other" is at her house. What is that about? I feel like this child is going to be damaged from this crap. It makes me cry for her. I wish I could save her and make everything happy and lovie for her. I try to be there for her as much as I am allowed but it doesn't feel lime its enough. She said Kyleigh and I are her best friends. How sweet is she? I wish I had an answer to make it all better for her.

I hope that her parent realizes very soon what a mistake they are making before this little girl has any long term issues from this crap.

That is all for now, I will get off of my soap box.