Yesterday morning someone very close to me attempted to take their own life. This person over medicated, and thankfully realized what a huge loss the world would suffer without them in it. I feel so sad about this because this person lives far away and is not in hugging reach. If I could I would take away all the pain and hurt for them and just carry it so they could be happy. I am really feeling so torn up about this and I am not sure how to help.

How do you save someone from miles and miles away? How can we make someone see themselves through the eyes of another? I guess I just need some positive vibes sent towards the situation. Hopefully it gets better.

I need more money! (Don't we all?)

I work full time and it still just doesn't seem to be enough to make ends meet. I think I have come to a decision to take a break from school to get a second job. This just seems like something I HAVE to do.

Along with that I also started doing some research online about other ways to make some extra cash. In my research I found a website called Shutterstock.com where you can submit photos you take and the users can download them. When the users download them you get a minimum of .25, per picture, per download. Why not give it a try?

I am not sure how well this is going to go but figure since I take so many photos why not give it a shot? Browse the site and if it is something you are interested in please go through the link below to participate in the rewards program which will start you off with some money just for utilizing it!!


Submit Photos to Shutterstock and make $$$!

Enjoy!

Hormones... God awful hormones. The past year and a half has been the first time in a long time since I was off of some sort of birth control and it is hell. My emotions are on an uncontrolable roller coaster ride. I was doing research and I seriously am concerned that I may have PMDD, it is a severe form of PMS. On ths Mayo Clinic website it said if you had 2 of the symptoms of the around 12 that they listed you may have it.. I had all except one. I dont know what to do with myself, this cycle is eating away at me. I get SO low about the week or two before my period and it feels like once I start to feel totally better it is already the week or two when I start feeling low again. Chasing my tail.

Tonight was the first time in 7 years I actually felt like a loser for working where I do. A girl from HS came in and she seemed to be doing very well, and looked down her nose at me. Wow. I felt, and still feel a bit down because of that (and guess what time of the month is closing in?). I hate that I work so hard and I still struggle so much. I hate lots of things right now, and for the most part the only thing that picks me up is my baby girl. She is the best remedy to anything. Hopefully when I pick her up tomorrow it helps me feel better.