I feel like it has been forever. I finally am really feeling better. Things have color again, they are getting more and more possible everyday. I feel like I can do it all, but the key is going to be not overloading myself. I tend to do that when I feel like I can do it all. I load up the responsibilities and then get crazy busy and burn out. I am not going to do that.

I feel like I need to get some of my creativity out. I am not sure how, but I will figure that out. I want to paint, or make something.. I am not sure. I used to write poems and doodle and all kinds of stuff, and I just kind of stopped somewhere along the line. I am going to try and re-capture that side of myself. I want to start really surrounding myself with positive people, people who make me happy and make me want to be better. I have been talking to a couple of my friends about getting a place soon. I want to wait until I graduate with my AAS is October, so that I can get started in a good job. I am looking forward to going and doing my taxes this Wednesday, the refund will hopefully be pretty good so that I can get some bills paid off and lessen my financial burdens. How exciting does that sound?! It sounds pretty dang amazing to me! :)

School so far is going good this quarter. I enjoy my classes and for the most part feel like I am learning new stuff. I took Anatomy in high school that felt much more in depth than the class I am currently taking so this is kind of a refresher for me (thank goodness). In my career development class we have been doing a practice job search and it is really getting me excited to get out there and find a great job! After completion of this class I will have a GREAT resume and cover letter, and hopefully a new found confidence in an interview setting.

Gosh!! I just feel so good right now. I am so happy to feel happy again!

I realized when I set out to write this today that I told my counselor that I have not been writing as of late, and that is not entirely accurate. This blog is a journal of sorts, wouldn't you say? Maybe I am not hand writing it but I am still getting all the buzz off of my brain. Letting the thoughts (however random they may sometimes be) flow from my brain and be the pollution of a paper, or in this case a blog, is a huge relief for me.

Last night I went and hung out at my cousin's house. Kyleigh and Cameron (my cousin's son) played and us Mommy's got to hang out and talk. It was probably one of the best nights I have had in a while. It was relaxing and for the most part the kids behaved really well and we all had fun. It was just us and the kiddos! We danced, sang and threw a ball back and forth and I wrestled with a 3 year old. (To my credit he was doing the wrestling as I was throwing him on the couch lol) It was so fun! Family sometimes is the best cure to anything.

I want to leave on this note for myself to look back on when I need some uhmpf:

Nancy,
Even if things are hard, they ALWAYS get better. Everything ALWAYS falls into place, maybe not how you planned it, but it is always the way it is supposed to. Let go of the plans a little and allow life to flow as it will. Enjoy the little things and take deep breaths. Smile even when you don't feel like it, that usually slips you into some degree of happiness. Look at your daughter and kiss her and tickle her and let the music of her laughs take you somewhere happy. Be thankful for what you have. Do not feel sorry for yourself. Dance. Just be patient with life. Work hard and know that it is good enough. You are a strong, adaptable woman who deserves great things. Let yourself have them.

I think that is enough for today! :) I hope everyone is feeling happy. If not, I hope my words help even if it's just a little bit. Until next time!