Moving into an apartment of my own is something I want so bad right now that it has begun to be all I can think about. I am having a hard time being nice about everything with my mom and her boyfriend. Neither of them have jobs and they both continuously complain about how much food I "dont" buy or what kind etc etc etc. I do what I can with what I have and it is never good enough. I dont feel it is my responsibilty to support either of these grown adults but I am trying to help.

I have to keep Kyleigh as my main priority and that is a concept neither of them seem to understand. He has no children and she never put hers before herself or any man she was ever with. So having a child's welfare put before tgeir own is apparently beyond comprehension for them. My goal is to have enough saved for a deposit on a place by the time our lease is up. If I cant get that accomplished I might move to my grandma's until I get my tax return then use that money to move. I cant wait to get my VERY OWN place :)! I am so dang excited for that.

Just another day :)

Not all that much is going on today. The weather was super crazy and made me a little worried about business at my job-since we are a water park and all.. But it is out of my control and I realize that.

Speaking of work, I have revently been offered a new position in the company. I accepted it and I am very nervous about it. I have been there 7 years the end of this month and I have not really worked this department. I feel like I have a lot to learn, but I know I can do it and I just have to keep that in mind.

Recently when I say to Kyleigh "you better check yourself" she says "before you wreck yourself moooomm" haha so funny. Her little brain is just growing leaps and bounds and it is really cool to witness. She is getting a crazy funny personality and her ability to rationalize amazes me! I will try to muster some energy to post pics within the next few days :)

I love puzzles.

I was just reading something I wrote in a journal a couple weeks ago, and this really struck me:

"My family and friends are so amazing and I am so thankful for them. I love them. I need them and I love that they are there. I don't even have to ask, they just are. How awesome that I have the blessing of that? Some people don't know that love that I know. Some people will never know that love. I am lucky."

Even just reading it brings up the same emotions that caused me to write it, and makes me happy and thankful. I truly am blessed with a family that sticks together through thick and thin, and sometimes I forget that. We all have all kinds of crazy things going on and we all manage to reach out and lend a hand when we see someone we love struggling. I think that is really an amazing thing to have. I recognize that not many people have supportive family, or family at all for that matter, and I love that I have mine. 

Every person in my life has a piece of my puzzle. Be it a small one or a large one, they are all necessary to complete the picture. I am so thankful for each person who holds a piece to my puzzle; everyone of them has taught me something, inspired me, or just made me smile. Some know this, and some don't- either way it is special. I look forward to expanding my picture as more people are given puzzle pieces. Life is and will continue to be an interesting, sometimes difficult, but always beautiful puzzle.